Family.. Holidays... Anxious?!

I don’t know about you guys but it’s something about the holidays where I get SUPER anxious and before having kids would want to crawl under a rock to hide from the world. After my grandparents passed away YEARS ago, I most definitely fell off the wagon of being around family during the holidays.  

Before the passing of my grandparents, it was the tradition of going to my nana’s house to eat thanksgiving dinner and going over Christmas eve to celebrate Christmas. But once they passed no one really kept up that tradition it was literally like everyone went and did their own thing.  Which then led me to want to do my own thing and create my own traditions especially when I had my daughter(s). 

Once I started doing those things, I started getting a lot of backlash of I don’t come around anymore or why didn’t they get the invite over, which then REALLY either made me feel guilty or just upset me. I do feel that I should be a little bit more “present” for my family members because they do say “life is short and you never know when you will see or talk to that person again” but I’m learning that at the end of the day I’m human and I will always need to make sure I do what’s best for me so that I can show up and be present.

Unapologetically, I started doing what’s best for me and I'm selfishly going to continue to create spaces for myself and daughters doing traditions that I feel is best for me, my girls, and my husband. I say all this to say…DO YOU BABE… and do what is best for you and what your mental especially around the holidays. Whether that is doing traditions with extended family or creating your OWN.   Just be sure whatever you are doing is bringing you JOY and not disturbing your PEACE.

xoxo